Lost & Found: What Brain Injury Survivors Want You to Know

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For the commenter below:  I had a TBI two years ago.  I lost my sense of smell, and it has not returned.  My doctor told me that it if wasn't back after six months, the odds are strong that it would never return.  Loss of smell is common with TBIs.

My guess is that, if you are like me, you can still taste things but the sense is much weakened.  That's because the sense of smell heavily influences what we taste.  Without smell, I can still taste a few stronger things (like spices and mint) but most things have no flavor.  Food enjoyment is mostly about texture.

I just have to say thank you for this. It took me a year to realize something was wrong with me (after two car accidents within two weeks of each other)...getting fired for the first time and plummeting from a 4.0 in my Master degree to failing didn't seem to do it. Once I did the real struggle started...trying to pinpoint what is going on with me and my challenges. I research when I can't explain to others my challenges. I am so glad I found this, as I will share with family. Aside from me struggling to figure out what was wrong the next challenges was abc continues to be friends and family...because I "look fine and seem fine" in simple conversations. What I say to that person is that someone with my former career, continuing education as a future doctoral student and financial security doesn't just decide one day to throw it all away for no reason. To file bankruptcy. To lose my home in foreclosure. To lose my Master's degree (I had one class left) and my acceptance into a doctoral program. This hopefully will help family understand further. Thank you so much.

Eight years and a few months ago I had my skull screwed back together after the removal of a GBM. They got it all and it hasn't recurred, bucking all the odds and making me a medical miracle. That's great, but the combination of standard of care leaves patients with a new and different existence. Behavioral modification and cognitive impairment are expected from any brain surgery, and most TBIs. I can only surmise that my improved functioning is a product of my continuous stimulating of my endocannabinoid system, and also includes neuro protective and neuro genetic qualities. I'm still doing the PA at high school basketball games, memorizing names as I call the action. That miraculous plant has been falsely demonized our entire lives and recognizing when you're wrong is a difficult task, but cannabis and humans have a bond that is unmistakable if you're willing to look into it with an open mind.

I am totally there with all of the above issues,and working on all of them..I am also experiencing others wanting and thinking I can recover faster. Even my close family and friends.My family physician even states I can get better faster :(

My nephew had a TBI in 2002. he lost his sense of smell and taste. Taste returned in the first year.Sadly, he still has no sense of smell.It's just one example but you asked...pray that you have a better outcome.

This is so very true♡ my dad is a survivor and every bit of this describes him. Thank you so much for Sharing♡

Hi to all. Just wanna know if anybody in this forum who had TBI and lost their sense of smell and sense of taste??? Did you get them back? What treatment did you get? Please let me know. I had TBI 6 months ago and I'm still waiting for my senses to get back. My doctors don't have any clue and don't offer any hope.

I suffered a ischemic stroke to the right frontal lobe.  I was in denial that there was anything wrong when it happened, other than being in a state of confusion for almost 4 days before going to the hospital.  Everyone said it was stress.  The hospital said it was a brain tumor and sent me on my way.  I am a year and 3 months out and just started working again.  I am not sure how it will work out as the only job I could find is in a warehouse and they expect me to meet the standard for someone who has all their brain working.  I still have periods of confusion and have to stop and figure out where I am which impacts my ability to perform.  I also find crowds to be annoying and my temper is very short.  I am not able to keep friends and find my attitude has taken on a " who cares" sort of perspective.  My husband does not understand what has happened and believes there is demon inside of me.  It is very frustrating and feel very alone when part of your brain ceases to work.  The only positive in my life is my horse who loves me just the way I am.

I love ur post, and know u r blessed

18 years now for me and still struggling with people who misunderstand

My TBI was 8 yrs ago - run over by a drunk driver at the airport.  

Your comments have made me feel like I am not alone.  I will never meet you nor speak to you but you have probably saved me.

I lost me - I know I lost me and I want ME back!  Before the accident, picture your stereotypical sorority girl - but nice :-) - doing volunteer work at the orphanage, working full time, organizing campus wide fund raiser, and more and still pulling down a 3.8 in college (engineering).  I was everyone's friend because I LOVED people.  I loved being around them, I loved talking to strangers and hearing their life stories and learning lessons to use in my own.  I hugged everyone!  You either loved me or hated me because I was that annoying perky happy person but at least I tempered it with a very sarcastic sense of humor.

Fast forward to marriage and kids.  Still worked 60 - 70 hours a week (global team so all hours of the night and day), was homeroom mom for two kids, GS leader for two troops, GS Council, basketball team mom, soccer team mom,  and more all at the time of the accident.  And then, because some drunk decided to drive - in reverse - and drag me 18 ft, it was all over.

For six months, I couldn't sleep in any position but sitting up in a recliner due to the various injuries.  But more importantly, I couldn't stand for anyone to touch me, even my kids.  At first, I thought it was from the pain (broken ribs) but it got worse.  I couldn't remember anything and I just wanted everyone to go away and leave me alone.

I was diagnosed finally and took all the tests.  My short term memory is really bad.  I have lost entire chunks of my life - I don't remember my children's first steps or first words.  They will say "remember when we.... " and I have to just smile because I haven't a clue what they are talking about.

And people... oh, I don't like people in person.  I can still talk to you on the internet and thank God that I am "home office" so that I can continue to work, otherwise, I would be on disability.  I can handle being around friends for maybe an hour and then I have to walk away for a while.  I can't go to Target or a football game unless it is a good day.  I deal better "in crowds" than I do say Parent Sports team meetings because I have to deal one on one and they still want me to organize everything or be perky and I JUST CAN'T DO IT.

My husband was supportive for the first several years but now thinks I am faking it.  The latest round of medication for my migraines and other drugs has helped me to gain 40 lbs.  The shots for my permanently damaged knee have basically stopped working and I can't sleep or get comfortable from the pain.

He has started to call me stupid and make comments like "you really are brain damaged, aren't you?" in a vicious manner.  I can never do enough to make people happy and I can't be who I was and want to be again.  He says I am a fat, disgusting crazy idiot.  Happy 25th anniversary honey - you should be committed!

We/I bought a farm last year - 30 acres in the middle of nowhere - 12 hrs from our main house.  It was "his idea" although now he resents if I go there but all I want to do is just run away.  Stay at my farm and not see people.  Live without stress, but I can't because of my children.


And if I can't have the old me, then I want to be left alone so that can find peace with the "new me" because apparently, we are going to be stuck with each other for the rest of our lives...

ps... sorry I ranted but I feel so alone...

This sums things up so well, I just really wish I could get others around me to understand also.

Wow, I just stared directly into the mirror it seems for the first time in 12 years almost to the day. You hit the nail on head. OMG, I cannot UNread this to avoid the reality of it, it's just so overwhelming. How can I say I've made it this far? I simply can't run away from myself, so, so far, I guess my future will present itself. It just depends on "where I stand in governments hands" for where it is I will wind up. Got "in line" for housing years ago... "my future is in general population line up."

There is hope for those of you with mild to moderate brain injuries.  New science has emerged on the ability to use quantitative EEG technologies to pinpoint the areas of dysfunction in the brain, and to retrain them using Neurofeedback - see article for more information:


Don't give up, and don't lose hope.  Continue to seek help to fully recover!

I accidentally come across this site and couldn't belieave how right on this site is.  I am the mom of a 16 year old daughter who has a tbi. She had a horse back riding accident 3 years ago and is really struggling.  She is on meds for depression, and anxiety of all kinds.  It seems like we are taking her to the doctor all the time, always says she is sick and most of the time they do find something wrong with her mostly this year sinus infections.  Anyways this isn't easy alot of people don't understand brain injuries.  She is the first one they have seen that was this bad.  Oh, at first they did everything they could for her academically from getting her a tutor to just about anything, well now it's been 3 years and they think she has healed.   She is on an I.E.P. , if she misses so many school days in a quarter they make her type reports, that's all she needs more more to do when she can't hardly finish her home work.  Even her many doctor appointments count againt her.  My husband and i have gone to meeting upon meetings trying to talk them into puting it into her I.E.P. that because of her disability and needing these doctors appointments it shouldn't count against her, well they cut the reports in half but it's still a struggle and they will not do as we ask.  Acouple of years ago my daughter had a break down at the school and she ended up in a childrens mental hospital for 2 weeks. I do realize i don't push her enough worried she will fall apart again but i am not sure how much i can push her without this happening.  She can go to school for so many days then she says she is sick or her head hurts so i call the school and try to explain but they don't get it.  Sometimes i don't get it!  The doctor at the Psychiatric hospital told my husband and I that the child that got hurt that day is never going to be the same, like that person died and now she is trying to find the new person.

Thank you for listening.....

Another one is that if the survivor is a person of faith, his or her recognition that he or she will not be the same again is not a lack of faith but acceptance.

Just like so many others have said, this is spot on for TBI survivors.  I am 13.5 years out and still trying too hard and making myself ill.  So it's a great reminder to myself that although I have always just wanted my life back it is not as simple as that.  Thank you for this fabulous article.

I am everything this article talks about...but yet it seems no one understands and then I feel alone in this trauma and confused???

This is a wonderful piece of information to pass along to family and friends. I suffered a traumatic brain injury in 2003 as a result of an automobile accident. The accident was catastrophic and I was in a coma for 6 days. 11 years later I am doing well but suffer everyday living with a brain injury. What was mentioned in this article I experience most of the time. Trying to explain it to people who don't get it is very hard. Thank heavens for websites like this. Your are a blessing.

Are there any video suggestions that I could show at my support group around this topic ?

All I can ask is, "Will I ever be the same?"  The guilt, the shame and as the source of constant disappointment to everyone who knows--or knew--me is relentless, Three years already, and it's still just shadows, cinders of a person I once used to know. God, I am so tired...

My son was severely injured in Iraq and lost both legs above the knee by IED blast. We had a local doctor donate 80 hyperbaric treatments to heal his brain and it worked! He takes no medications at all and we literally got our son back!

What a windfall to find this forum.

I experienced a subdural hemmorage in my right frontal lobe 6 years ago. I underwent brain surgery where they evacuated the bleed and clipped the blood vessel. I have had seizure disorder since then. I underwent several life changing events within this period of my life, in the following order; pre-surgery, father died, lost me CEO job and I contracted bacterial endo-carditis. I had an aortic heart valve replacement then the brain anuerysm surgery 2 weeks later. My 1st valve operation failed 4 months post-brain surgery. My wife met another man and filed for divorce, serving me papers the Friday before the Monday surgery. I went through 3 years of talk therapy and my divorce property preceedings took 3 years to finish. I spent $200k of my retirement savings to pay legal and medical bills. I am writing this down to explain my dilemna with my brain functioning, since the brain surgery.

I cannot express these negative emotions of deep sadness with crying. I find they are bottled up inside and none of the therapy I received changed this ability to relieve the pain of the extended trauma, 6 years later. I do have joint custody of my two young boys(7&9) and received most of my pre-marriage assets back. There is a silver-lining to this TBI and that is that this condition of "muted" emotions saved me from suicide and homicide immediately after release from the rehab. I do harbor hatred yoward my ex and many people who don't understand TBI, say "forgive and forget", a decision my brain won't allow me to do. After my discharge from rehab, I had my boys and I met a new love partner(my current wife). The downside of this brain injury was that I was disabled (judged so by neuropsychologists for cognitive function) and could not find work in my field. Being in a small industry, the word of my heart and brain surgery spread quickly and some people thought I had actually died. The ones who knew I had survived were skeptical of my remaining faculties. I was stygmatized due to my health problems, long past. I won't feel completely healed until these negative emotions and release of sadness occurs.

During my time on disability, I started my own company and was prospecting for financing, which has not happened, as yet. Due to financial needs, I have been applying for work in industry that is related to my previous industry. I will decide on the future of the company if/when i get a job offer that I want to accept. I have two opportunities currently presenting themselves that may land me a well paid job in the next month without being required to relocate away from my children.

I don't believe I am limited in my cognitive abilities, as evidenced by my development of this new company. I do get mentallly tired easier, but do not haveoutward symptoms described in the various forums or medical websites I have visited.

I had a craniotomy in 2010 to remove 2 meningiomas.  Because of the surgery I lost most of the sight in one eye, have momentary lapses in awareness, have difficulty in situations where there are a lot of people or a lot of stimulus - it seems like I can't process all the information.  Also, after being in those situations I get migraine headaches and am taking Zoloft for depression. Just went to a psychiatrist for cognitive testing and it's his opinion that I have an anxiety problem and should just force myself to put myself in situations that are overwhelming to me.  It's making me feel even worse about myself and that I'm a burden on my family.  I'm very grateful that I just found this site so I don't feel like I'm all alone and it's not all in my head, so to speak. Thank you. KM

Does anyone have information on the long term effects and PROS and CONS of using PEEK Cranial Implants?

I'm a brain cancer survivour. We didn't find out about it until my tumour had hemorrhaged. We didn't even know it was a tumour; it was diagnosed as a cyst before the hemorrhage. After surgery, radiation, and chemo, I couldn't explain how everything was. Everything was caged in. Even doctors didn't understand why I couldn't say how I felt. This makes complete sense, and describes everything that I go through now. Without that 10th of my brain, it will remain this way.

Thanks, I am tbi and suffer from seizures for over 20 yrs. now.   Main thing I hear is why do you lay around in afternoon or get sick so much. I try to ignore what people think, but it reallyhas  bothers me over the years.

Amen to this...... This is exactly how I feel.

7 months ago I fell. TBI diagnosed with ADHD also discovered. I am not, nor expect myself ever, going to be the same.

I want to print this and give it to family & friends...my symptoms are NOT my imagination....wishing everyone understood is....

I'm glad to read this.  It reminds me to give myself a break.  I'm very very hard on myself. . But I can't remember which way to turn to get from the grocery store to my friend's house. (Yes I've passed my driving test since my injury.). People think I'm lazy because I am on disability.  I don't remember anything I read.  It's depressing as hell. 

Thank you, from all of us with Chiari Malformation and Intracranial Hypertension.

After a month long state of severe headaches and a clean cat scan which should have been done with contrast, my cerebral venous sinus thrombosis caused Sagittal sinus to burst do to a clot. At 33 always exercising and eating healthy not smoking this is what happened. Somehow I survived it and appear to be ok physically. I just suffer from soreness and my stamina isn't the same. I never got tired or sore from the gym. Now it kicks my butt. 

I just found this site today and I'm learning so much.  I had a TBI when I was 10 and have a plate over my right frontal lobe.  That was 50 years ago and the only thing I know about my injury is that my parents were told that I was retarded but they weren't sure to what degree and that I would have epileptic seizures.  I almost died and had bone fragments and shale rock embedded in my brain.  I was very different after and told my mom that something was wrong, something was different and something was missing.  I couldn't control my emotions but she wouldn't talk to me about it.  I have fumbled through life without having any help whatsoever and have managed to alienate 2 husbands and my 3 daughters who I love very much.  They won't have anything to do with me.  I have been struggling to try to save my relationship with them and everything I did was wrong. I've never discussed my brain injury with them until lately and they think it is a bid for sympathy and was the final straw for them.  Finally I am going to seek help.  Thank you for this site.

I am not Faking it!!!!

These hit home with me, I'm really thinking of posting this on my dorm room door. I cracked my head open the senior year of high school and got a concussion, since then I've had multiple head injuries and a month ago sustained another concussion. I'm a college student, and I had been doing better cognitively but after the last concussion it's like I'm back at square one. We are having to retrain my brain for everything, and it is beyond frustrating to wake up each day and have people judge me for not being able to "be normal". It's kinda comforting to know there are others going through the same kind of thing.

I am so glad to have found this site. I suffered an anoxic brain injury when I was 19. My personality changed. I wasn't diagnosed with a TBI for over a year. I was fortunate to have had therapy and been shown some useful tools to help me with my everyday life.

I am a 31 year survivor of severe TBI, thank you~

Wow, I am so grateful to have found this website!! I have been doing so much research after I got hurt. I had 2 concussions within about 3 weeks of each other in the late summer and early fall. One severe one to the front of my eye/head and a mild one to the back of my head. A lot of my symptoms were pretty delayed, not presenting themselves for weeks after I got hurt. Now I struggle with all my symptoms and I have recently developed odd  pressure and a stutter. Some of my friends think I'm faking, but I wish I were. I have no control over the stutter and it's inconsistency. My scans show nothing and  I just want to be seen as who I am, I don't want this stupid brain injury to define me, I don't want to be pitied, I just want to be me. This site looks like a huge help, and hopefully will help learn more about my injury. If anyone has any adivce to this exhausted college kid, please feel free, I need all the support I can get these days. ~Robin

I found this site today. and it left me in tears. I had a TBI in 1998, I had several significant concussion before playing sports, many falls followed, seizures, constant migraines. My wife divorced me. My friends called a malingerer and left, only my children stayed. Medical treatment was poor until three years ago. For the first three years I could not speak coherently. I still have trouble and live below the poverty line. I am now treated for the migraines and for the seizures but not for the head injury.  This year is the first year, for a whole number of reasons, I have been able to live on my own. I have not know what my future is or what to do.  I am more than glad to have found this site, MORE THAN GLAD!

Thank you for the comments ! Its been five years since my wife had her brain tumor removed (we are the lucky ones) THE SURVIVORS !!! Sometimes we can forget ! or just get caught up in the daily grind of life and after all the stressful situations we faced as a family, We can forget that we are very lucky to get through this very tricky stressful time of life These are life and death situations (There's no instruction manual to follow) Just survival mode I know my wife now suffers from pain (i admire her determination) We are all picking up the pieces and trying to get back to that place we once called normality Be positive and you will find a good place The weekly Neuro physio Trips have and still are very helpful (Thank you Nikki x) i suggest anyone who has has surgery find one of these amazing physio's, They can help Also find a Doctor who deals with pain (if required) The British Pain Society Reading some of the stories (not all as i am probably the most impatient man on the planet) has given me a new insight in the way my wife feels i am sitting here writing this feeling very selfish, as i have been given a gift of keeping my wife alive, and all i have been doing the past few days is getting grumpy and feeling lonely due to the fact she needs her rest and the situation that has landed upon us (I am am truly sorry ) We have just moved house and for a person who has not dealt with TBI that can be stressful enough ! She is the most amazing strongest person i have ever met and i love her deeply Now i need to remind myself, that even after five years she will continue to need the patience and support required for a TBI survivor (i will find this patience from somewhere) She is my everything and i would be lost without her xxx For my wife Keely x
I received a TBI 13 years ago. I was a single mom. Everyone and everything I knew to be real was history. Even my own children left me to fend for myself in this ugly, ugly, world. I have no memory & no sense of time. Can't tell you about the births of my children, or even my grandchildren. Recently, w/o any eviction notice, 3 women dragged every memory I owned onto the curb where passersby, & the women themselves kept whatever they wanted - I was in the hospital, no one called to let me know. My only friends are three other disabled people...they were physically assaulted for trying to help me do what I have never been able to do since that car accident robbed me of my life. Because the 3 of us who have brain damage spoke irraticly, events out of order, one FTW officer said to me, "well, if you are brain-injured, how did you just use that legal term?" lol The mother of the other two mentally handicapped friends wanted to file assault charges because the aggressive, non brain-injured party, was only given the lightest misdemeanor (a ticket), I tried to help by calling the detective handling the matter and even his Sgt. superior. The mom was told that I must not be a very good friend to have dragged then into this case. Evidently, we all have different abilities and disabilities. They suggested the charge of "perjury," for lying for me! The Sgt. told me I was "like a spoiled kid throwing a tantrum, holding my breath till I was red in the face, but they still weren't going to give me my "way." So, for wanting justice for the assault on my 2 friends who are mentally disabled as I am, The most I got out of the attempt was another verbal beat-down by the law enforcement that constantly tell us to call them if we need help...lol. I can just imagine how this will go over in court if I don't get a very sympathetic lawyer real soon!
I'd love to know if anyone on this site has suffered a brain injury and completely divorced themselves from the family who loves them. My niece is recovering from a brain injury and has chosen to remove me from her existence. It breaks my heart each and every day and I am trying to better understand why and to remain openhearted to her needs. The pain for me is that she allows others into her life yet not me, the Aunt who loves her so very much. Your insights are very much appreciated.

Great article! It is obvious that many of us connect with the symptoms and find relief that others are or have experienced what we have or are having. But more than that, this site brings all of us together with a common bond of losing what we once knew and struggling to understand or accept who we are today. It I has been six years since my TBI and I still struggle with living in the new "me". Yes, anger, exhaustion, confusion, fear, loneliness, all those things I still struggle with. I describe it as living life one step behind the rest of the world. Or having a dimmer switch turned down to low. I was an active, fun loving person, ran my own business and raised three great kids. Now I struggle to cook, clean or go shopping. I do not drive, and I am dependent on my loved ones to take me to the places I once freely took myself to. I have lost my social filter and often say inappropriate things at really inappropriate times or places. I cannot stay in a store where too many things and people are talking and moving about. Too much light, too much sound, too much motion. My heart was turned off. I have little emotion, or feelings of personal connection to people or such. It is a very empty feeling. I truly miss me.

You know, Ive had TBI problems and concerns that I feel that NO ONE understands. Even me. I even had a stroke because of one of the surgeries, its hard to even try to try. But after finding this article. I no longer feel alone. And now, all those 'petty' 'laziness issues' and 'lack of will power' is finally explained by this article. I am very thankful for this post. And wish my fellow SURVIVORS of TBI the best of luck. We've all made it this far….there is no point in giving up!
Loved this article, very helpful reminders to share because some brain injury survivors have trouble communicating but definitely deserve to be heard like everyone else!
I also was discharged from the trauma center and all my papers said was when my next appts. were with the trauma doctors. It'll be 10 years in Feb. and I'd give anything to talk with someone that actually understood the intensity of loss of ME I feel and how frustrating and scary too life is now. Im so tired. So blah. So insecure because of the cognitive losses and almost complete inability to form long term memories. And I rock a lot. It's awful. I've hsd panic attacks for first time and my claustraphobia is worse. I'm alone 90 to 95%!!!! I'm lonely now.
I echo a lot of things already said. I wish so badly the hospital or rehab center had sent me home with information like this. I need to contact them and find out why and tell them that they need to provide TBI patients this kind of information (and a lot more) when they leave the hospital! I went through so many thing like this in the first years after my TBI and had no idea what was happening to me. This is clear and simple. Thank you for the information.
Hi This is James again..the long story below..!! Just a little update and what it is like to live with this condition 10 years later and well into working with it. I have not been able to work at my bench jewelry projects for about three weeks now..I also had to deal with anxiety attacks to the point that even my breathing was affected. Felt inside of myself that I was just going to explode emotionally. I could not get a handle on this condition...I have never felt anxiety before...I of course did not sleep well the past three weeks and got little very much needed work done. I did hide these emotions inside myself and kept the world from knowing.. I did finally get through to my wife about TBI..we had a fight and when I said I had TBI..she laughed and said No way.!! you had a little mental breakdown.. Well I was ready for that statement this time and challenged her since she knew to just go on the internet and compare TBI with a break down and get back to me. She came back to me and had to admit I was correct and was sorry for how she has treated me all these years. She finally gets it about my condition..she did some research and thanks to this site as well as another site and all the information today to pull from all over the internet. She still does not understand what I deal with, but at least is trying..I copied the page here on what NOT to say to a TBI survivor and some other info here. The information since the Afghanistan war bomb survivors and some sports stars have come forward to help educate the public has increased over the years to what we have today. I guess I have been pushing myself to hard again and broke down..I label it a melt down. The mind is so similar to the computer..it also crashes,boot ups,slow response times, Re-boot and so on.. I use the computer to link to..to be able to explain myself and how I work.. Keep your chin up and work beyond the current challenge as I do. Wish there was an easy fix answer..There is not..!! But I hope you have compassionate and understanding friends and family. That has been my greatest challenge. James
While the accident that caused it was never a major one, I have had a number of concussions before which lead to it being worse than what it was. I was absolutely fine shortly after the accident and didnt have any trouble getting back to work (slight car accident on my lunch break). And even getting back to home after work as well being dropped off from a workmate. There was something up that night, I could just feel it, the following morning it was hard enough to say that I was okay yet alone when my flatmate asked if they should make me a cup of coffee as well. Almost breaking into tears at the inability to explain myself to them, my mouth moving around as though eventually words would come out even though eventually nothing. Its one of the most humbling experiences where it felt as though I had to start from scratch. After going to the doctor and having numerous tests and profiles completed it was around 6 months before a part time return to work (after much worry and anxiety on my part as to if I could even do the work any more, when you notice that you cant do simple things at home you doubt whether you can go back to work). To me the best thing was getting back to work and starting to find another way of doing things and make the effort to relate things to each other. Sometimes the most frustrating things are the simplest where it may of taken you 2 seconds to calculate something now takes 20 or 30 seconds *went from the 81st to 72nd percentile in math/abstract reasoning tests before and after the accident* It takes time, stick it out and it will get better. You will get there :)